AAAAAAAH!! I'M FALLING APART!!
I have been looking at different diets online since last night. Do I want to try Atkins? South Beach? SparkPeople's menu plans? Weight Watchers Momentum online? The Best Life? The Zone? Slim-Fast? Jillian Michaels? I'm seriously going crazy trying to figure out what to try to get myself out of this mess! I feel like I'm spinning out of control! I have absolutely not kept the 90 day challenge going so far. I didn't even start it! I have not had one single on plan, on track, healthy, whatever-you-want-to-call-it, day since, oh, December 17th? It's terrible! And look at where my weight is right now! I guarantee you it's higher today than it was 3 days ago when I weighed in! If I don't do something about this, and soon, I'm going to end up back at 190 lbs before I know it!
I was really looking forward to going to counseling to try and get these emotional problems taken care of, to get this food addiction licked! And then I found out I don't have mental health coverage, and I am not going to pay $150 a session, or ask my parents to pay it! They have counseling at my school which is very affordable for full time students, but I don't know, I just don't know.
Wooh, ok, well I feel better at least being able to freak out a little on the blog. I think what I'm leaning towards is using SP's menu plans to get ideas on new things to try. Like a bagel with peanut butter, with some baby carrots, for lunch? I would never have thought of that, but that's one of the things on SP's menu plans. Shredded wheat cereal with raspberries for breakfast? Chicken with asparagus and oriental rice for dinner? Never would have thought of those, either. I don't know. I need to figure this out.
Anyone have any suggestions? Yes, I am actually calling for comments for once. Just please don't insinuate that if I don't do your suggestion, I'm an idiot. I'm just hoping maybe I'll hear something I hadn't thought of before.
18 comments:
First of all, maybe calm down a little and be a little nicer to yourself?
I really like Jillian Michael's approach, it's really sensible. "Count your calories, work out when you can, and try to be good to yourself. All the rest is bullshit." That's what I'm trying for now.
I have to admit, I have been tempted to go back to WW to try this new Momentum thing. But I think it's just the same program with a few minor tweaks, and I don't want to waste the money.
P.S. I think the counseling through your school might be a good idea, too. I have done some therapy and I found it really helpful. I have actually been toying about the idea of going back, too.
How about pulling all different aspects from each diet to make your own? You are the only person that really knows how your body will react to certain foods... For example I know that refined carbs bloat the hell out of me so I would go low carb, high protein but not hella meaty like the south beach diet suggests. Heaps of vegies too. I would probably limit the processed foods I eat aswell. Boring, I know. But that is what I would do! Hehe.
Hi!
I totally understand the freak out and the fear of gaining the weight all back, but it won't happen. You know what you need to do to get back on track.
I have been on WW for a year now, and although counting points everyday is pretty dreadful it keeps me on track. It's the only thing that I have tried and has worked, but finding a plan that allows you to eat different types of real foods that you enjoy seems to be the best options for keeping the weight off.
I agree that the counseling through your school would be a good idea. Personally, I have found my eating is directly linked to my emotions. So when I am calm, it's much easier to manage my eating habits because I am not reaching for a bag of cookies to provide comfort.
You're going to be okay and asking for suggestions and help is part of the first step in betting back on track. =)
you poor thing :( take it easy, you are being hard on yourself. I understand why, and I understand the anxiety you're going through. I don't know enough about your circumstances or your trouble areas to give you advice, but I would suggest putting the scale away and tackling your problem areas with an understanding of the underlying issues. Seeking professional help will help you understand this better. I wish you the best!
we all freak out at times. and we all get out of control at times. what works for you is up to you! but you have to find the belief in yourself to make it work! you can do it! it's a new year, and a new you! don't give up!
Hey Laura,
I had the same freak out episode earlier this week... So much so, that I've decided to take a break from WW... I've been going insane counting points... Basically obsessed about it.
I sent an email to the nutritionist/fitness coordinator at work yesterday pleading him for some help.
I'd be glad to share with you whatever resources he gives me.
I reverted to plain old counting calories based on the amount of workouts I do per week.
For the first time yesterday, I felt in control and did not binge! Surprisingly the scale was "nice" to me this morning.
The online programs (Jillian Michaels & WW) are a little expensive. I would recommend buying Jillian's books and DVDs... All the info is in there.
I also like Spark People, but it's not Blackberry friendly to me...
I'll also email you at lunch some links a friend shared with me that might help...
Hi Laura - I don't think there's a magic solution and I certainly haven't been much of an example to follow lately, but I've found that the most important things for me when I AM successful are journaling what I eat (whether or not I'm counting points), trying to eat as few processed foods as possible, planning ahead so I don't get too hungry, and exercising no matter what I've put in my mouth.
Also - when I was an undergrad I took advantage of my school's student counseling center (at U of Illinois) and really benefitted from it. I think you should give that a try, but just so you know, you don't have to stick with the first counselor you see - you might have to meet a few before you find a good fit - you won't hurt anyone's feelings by switching :)
come over if you have a moment.
perhaps a form of the zone might be something youd like?
WW might be the best for you, simply because you have to go in once a week and be accountable to a live person.
I tried Spark People but honestly, I didn't get much feedback from anyone, couldn't find anyone that was consistent, and the accountability wasn't there.
I'm not on WW now, but I've done it in the past and I lost about 20 lbs. really quickly. I stopped going, just because it was too expensive for me at the time--the meetings.
I love Jillian Michael's on BL, however, I've never read her book, but I know that she knows how to get results.
The counseling will probably be beneficial. Good luck.
Most of us have experienced that panicky feeling, where it feels like nothing is going right.
I admit that I'm a bit confused, though. You've had a very successful weight loss run. What you were doing before was working. Are you hoping that a new diet plan will motivate you? Or did your old plan quit working for you for some reason?
In any event, I hope you find the answers you're looking for!
paul - i'm just not motivated anymore. and obviously what i was doing wasn't that successful, or i wouldn't have lost 54 pounds just to gain nearly 25 back. and what i was doing before consisted of scott and i eating separate meals every day, which 1. costs more money and 2. causes us to be less close to each other. so i'm trying to find something which will allow me to cook for both of us, and motivate me to continue. i also need to get my emotional problems with food worked out, because until i do that, no eating plan will work for me in the long run.
i love weight watchers but i just started jillian michaels diet plan to jump start my diet. so far so good, its mostly low carb, lowww sugar and high protein/veggies/fruit...and you have to track the calories so its not like you can just eat whatever you want, which i like. so i'm doing the JM diet plan but also keeping the WW points in the back of my head to keep the calories in check. i haven't done the exercises yet but even so i've been going to the gym. so far so good.
definitely recommend it!
I don't know the JM plan very well, but I did straight up calorie counting for a year, and now I'm at the point where even though I'm NOT calorie counting at all, I have a really good sense of what's healthy and what's a treat. I do NOT even add up the calories in a meal, but I'm able to make sensible choices without thinking too much about it. I'm not losing weight anymore, but to be able to maintain without effort is AMAZING.
I'm in no position to give advice but as a serial dieter I just wanted to say that whatever you pick make sure its something you can do for life because if its a "diet" and you "quit" HELLO WEIGHT GAIN, you have to change your habits forever, its the only thing that has ever worked for me
I've never commented here before but I really feel for you. I think that if WW was what you were doing, and you truly had some great results as your stats show, I think it will work again for you. Give yourself ONE DAY on the plan. One true day, weighing/measuring portions, tracking those points, drinking your water, and take a good brisk walk. I think this will help you to get back to the plan. Then let that ONE DAY, lead to the next. All we have is today, all you can do is get through each day as it comes and seeing how you succeeded at the end of that first day, you should realize that you CAN do this. All the best to you, don't give up on yourself.
If you consider the cost of new clothes ('cause your old one's don't fit) or the cost of emotional pain, WW is really a bang for your buck dollar for dollar. See if they have student rates. First of all if you work the plan it WILL work! You cannot diet! If diets truly worked we would all be nation of "sticks", considering we spend 6 BILLION $$ per YEAR on diets! You have to change your lifestyle and that is the bottom line. If you eat emotionally, then eat veggies and fruit! You can still eat, but you will be getting nutritious food. When I am "emotional" I eat green pepper slices, snow peas and salads. Would I rather eat cookies and ice cream?!? Sure, BUT I know better. When I am in the "ice cream" mood, I eat a little fiber one cereal mixed with low cal yogurt. When you know better you do better...AND when you eat better you FEEL better!
Will counseling help? It might. However, if your school allows, counsel with your school dietician also. When you feel hungry or down or CRAZY (as we all do from time to time) take a walk and drink a big glass of water when you get back. You control what you put in your mouth. Once you take accountabiliy and responsibility for that, you will do GREAT! Happy New Year!
Dee
i appreciate the advice, but i don't think you understand that i have an addiction to food. i can't just tell myself, oh, eat some peppers! it doesn't work like that. that's why i need the counselling. i don't think even a dietician would help, because i already know how to eat healthily. i know exactly what to eat to lose weight, that's not my problem. i know exactly how to have a healthy lifestyle, but if i'm not mentally healthy, it will never happen. i do appreciate the comment though, truly. please stick around!!
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